We row our boats merrily down the stream of life, but it isn't just a dream. It's about chance. A gamble if you will. It's what we do for ourselves in order to make it through.
Every day can be a challenge. Family motivates us, so we work hard, and try to do the best we can. We sit at our desks, our counters, or our assembly lines, and daydream about the possibilities of something better coming along. Be it a better paying job, a career change with added benefits, or simply winning the lottery. No matter what our fantasies are, we still look out for the bigger picture.
Change is oftentimes more difficult for some than others. If you're dependent on a set income, or you have only one field you specialize in, change for the better can be a struggle. For some people it's a lifestyle change.
Take for instance myself as an example. I am at a time in my life where I must change current occupation, but it conflicts with my way of life. I'm used to a certain income, and if I take that away then I have to take a huge pay cut. But, it also conflicts with my end goal of doing what I dream of.
Right now I'm a freelance writer, I am not paid for what I love to do, but that's ok for now. I'm also a pin up model, I have the best time doing it, but I don't get paid for that either. What I do for a living as an exotic performance artist, the fancy term I give to the IRS, but at this moment in time I'm not making enough money to support my family where I work now. So, that means it's time for a change.
I have plans tucked into my back pocket for now, but long term I know I cannot be a dancer until I can retire. No one wants to see that. I don't want to see that. What I do want to see is my face squarely planted on the back of a book jacket, or on the cover of a magazine. Until then I must be where I can to make ends-meat.
I've taken steps into action, working hard to establish myself in this world. I've even created my own website, stocked full of modeling pics, and filled it with my writings, but that's not all. I've even set up a link to my awesome photographers who's work is seen on the site, if it weren't for them I'd have no use for a website. They have helped me with my dream of being in print, they have helped me realize that I can do anything I set my mind to. I have also made a special link for the awesome American Slander, not only as a direct link to see my column every Monday, but so everyone can realize just how fabulous, the, Kat Slander is, and give thanks to her for letting me write this craziness on her website. She has also helped me to see my potential as a writer, and believed in me enough to give my column idea a chance. If it weren't for her, you wouldn't be reading this right now.
I've been working hard this past week to make changes in my life for the better. Recently I had entered my Challenger in a car show, I came in third place. That didn't show I was a loser, but it did show that I worked hard to make my Baby look the very best. I had a lot of heavy competition, but I didn't feel like I lost, I still felt that I put forth as much effort to be the very best. I came out knowing that I will work even harder next year. The point is that even the small things you win simply because you tried.
I'm not going to give up the fight for my dreams. I'm going to get down, and dirty. I'm going to make sure I win next time. I'm going to keep writing, and keep modeling. Because one day I'm going to be on that bookshelf in the store next to the cover of that magazine with my face on it. I'm going to inspire others to just go for it, and I'm going to set an example to my children to not worry what others may think about them, so they can do what they dream too.
Keep fighting, and let's Dream Big.