Dream Big 95

Time seems to have flown by since I first began writing my Dream Big column. We are already at the 95th one with only five weeks remaining until the 100th, and this has a very powerful meaning behind it. Although I've mentioned this before, I began my column to keep a record of my journey to becoming a published author, a model, and an actress. Now, I have the Dream Big show, and the inspiration behind that came about when I interviewed a few individuals for my column. I couldn't imagine that many people would relate to my story, so I thought I'd better include other individuals who were chasing their dreams as well. To be honest, I felt that the people I'd interview were so much more interesting than I was, and to be honest they were. It was shortly after that when I came up with the idea for the interviews to be recorded, so I approached my good friend Will Allman of Fanboy Productions what his thoughts were on the subject. Well obviously he thought it was a good idea or I wouldn't be talking about the show. Alas, Dream Big the show was born unto the world of YouTube, and the social media masses alike.

We are two seasons into Dream Big, and season three is on its way. I'm writing this today, Thursday, May 4th, and the following Monday I will post this the day after Episode 1 of Season 3 is filmed. I'm actually quite excited about filming the season, I have almost completely booked the season, I'm only waiting for a few more guests to book a date, and I'm waiting patiently for the right individual to be my Season Finale guest. I do hope that this upcoming season will be the one to really get the show's message out there, broaden our audience, and finally get noticed by television executives. (A girl can dream can't she?) But what if those dreams don't come true for the girl that wants it all? I'm not exactly sure what will happen, and that's why I created the timeframe that I had allotted for. When I had reached the 100th Dream Big, I had to do some serious thinking of whether or not to keep chasing my dreams, or say that I tried, but it just didn't work out for me and move on. Perhaps I set my sights too high, and my expectations low, I'm not sure. All I know is where I wanted to be and where I saw myself being by the time I did reach the 100th Dream Big, and with only 5 weeks from now it will be here before I know it. I have to make a life altering decision, and I don't know if I'm ready to do that yet.

I believe it's been nearly two years since I was first published on the American Slander website on June 1, 2015. Since then I've moved the column to my own website, and have continued what I started. I know I'm the only name with Dream Big out there, and you can't even type it in to Google with over 11 other pages that has every other "Dream Big" out there, and not once does it mention my show, or my column, or anything about me; I know because I've searched the web for it just to see if there's any mention of it. Sometimes it really gets me down, like why am I even trying to do this? Although, I have considered changing the name, but perhaps I shouldn't. After all, shouldn't it just make me want to set myself out there to standout from all the others? I think it's my fear that holds me back from my true potential, but I'm not sure what that may be. Yoda said it best, "Do or do not, there is no try." It's seems to me that there is a difference in the do, and the try; trust me I'm trying to do both at the same time. All I know is that I'm doing the best I know how to do, but I'm also learning as I go. This has not been an easy road to travel on, and if I don't make it to the end, well that's a completely different story in itself. I can only take things as they come, work hard, and do my best to believe in myself that I can do this, and I will achieve what I set out to do.

Don't lose your footing along the path you've chosen to take, pick up the pace, be aware of your surroundings, and always dream big.