Life can be pretty peculiar at times. Lately, my life has been filled with ups and downs. I know for several of you that follow my column I've not written anything new in a few weeks and perhaps wonder what's been going on with me. So let me share a few of my adventures with you...
This devil has been going down to Georgia on a couple of occasions, as I have posted on Facebook. The reason is because I was lucky enough to have an opportunity to be a background extra on one of my favorite shows on television. I'm not going to say what it is until it airs, and if I don't see myself at all in the background then I won't bother to mention it at all. I'm not one to brag about stuff like that, but I really don't want to embarrass myself either if I'm just a blur in the backdrop of a scene. Perhaps I'll be a lucky one and have a momentary achievement of being on tv, but I'm not going to hold my breath. The experience was every bit worth the trip, even the long hours with minimal pay, but yes still worth it to me.
On that note, the acting bug has bit me in the butt. I have never felt more at ease and at home in my life, aside from modeling of course. Without sounding narcissistic I love being in front of a lens of any kind, I have ever since I was a little girl. My mother used to tell me what a ham I was anytime someone pulled out their camera. I would hurry and run out in front of them, and she said I would always flash a big smile and automatically pose. Not much has changed, but I don't run to photobomb anyone anymore at least. Now that I'm all grown up I have an all new appreciation for the photographic and film arts. There's a lot that goes into it, hard work and long hours are what brings the art to life. I want to be a part of every minute, and I want to do everything I can to make it happen. I know it won't happen overnight, but if I work hard with determination I know I'll at least have a chance to do what I've always wanted.
Once upon a time I had long given up on the idea of becoming an actress. I didn't think someone like me would have a shot. I never believed I was pretty enough, or special enough to be on the big screen, let alone the small screen. Now I'm older, I have more confidence than I ever had in my twenties, or even my thirties, but they say many women start brand new careers at forty. I'm determined to give it a try. I'm not going to count on that it will happen, but I'm still going to put forth the effort and try. I don't want to live the rest of my life with regrets and this would definitely count as regretful if I don't dare to live out my long lost childhood dream.
In my head, the ideas for other ventures are spinning like the lotto basket waiting for the next brilliant idea to be pulled out. What will be next in my world? I am planning for more interviews for my column, I would like more people to step up and share their stories of how they made it where they are today. I want to hear about the struggles, and the words of wisdom they have to pass on to others to never give up. It's good to know that we're not alone in chasing the stars to stardom. It's good to know that no matter who we are or where we come from there is always a chance, if we work hard to make it happen with the understanding that it won't fall in our laps, or happen overnight. We just have to keep believing our wishes will come true, and that our fairy godmother hasn't abandoned us.
Believing our dreams can come true isn't just for kids, big kids with even bigger dreams can still wish for it all. I know I do. There's nothing too big or small, if it's what you want to do in life. I know in my heart that I'm destined for greatness. There is a reason for everything, and if I wasn't as driven as I was about being who I want to be then I must be doing it wrong.
Whether I'm truly meant to do what I dream or not I will not give up, or give in to defeat. I will keep going until all of my options and my resources have ran out. Until then, I will believe in myself and I will dream big.