Tonight I watched the behind the scenes look at the great painstaking mission of the making of Snow White. One million and a quarter dollars for an animated film in that day in time must have been an event to be had. As an almost unheard of event it took a lot of ingenuity, and a lot of miracles to make that first full length animated feature happen. But the birth of Snow White from the Grimm Brothers Tales didn't just happen overnight, it was dreamt about for years before it was conceived into the grand stature it became.
At this day and age we have technology that supports those precious animated feature movies of today, but back then they were only just beginning to capture such innovative technologies invented and designed by talented engineers. Of course such technological advances weren't the only thing fueling the fires of magical developments. It was Walt Disney's big dreams that was the driving force behind the making of that movie.
Such an inspiration was that which made me feel inclined to watch Saving Mr. Banks again. I can't begin to describe the feelings that stirred in my stomach, and made my eyes well up with tears, and it moved me as much the second time as did the first time I watched it. Not only did it move me to the insurmountable desire to do what I've always daydreamed of doing, but to chase my dreams even harder than before.
Mr. Disney never stopped wishing upon that star, he knew exactly who he wanted to be. He didn't want to be a newspaper boy forever, I'm sure he looked to the sky for that perfect glow in the night to rest all his hopes on. One day I'm sure he knew his life would change because he believed it to be so, and he did make it happen. Now there's a little Mickey in all of us, sharing our dreams just like Walt did. He never kept his dreams to himself, he shared them with the world. And what a wonderful world it is.
Just as I am right now sharing my dreams with you...
These past six months have become such an achieving goal to where I want to be in the future. I see myself accomplished, satisfied with my success thus far. Will I achieve my magazine cover goal before years end? I do not know. Will I stop trying if I don't make the cut? No I won't. I'll never stop trying to be where I want to be, or do what I want to do. If Walt didn't try we wouldn't still be in Frozen fever long after its debut. But I'm going to quote Elsa, and "let it go", my fears that is.
In the past I've been my own bully, constantly putting myself down, or sabotaging the situation so I bring about failure of my own accord so I can control it. I can assure you that there is in fact absolutely no way to ever control any situation where you place yourself at risk for self destruction, no matter how in control you think you are. Honestly it just doesn't happen that way. And like any bully you must step up and defend yourself, no matter how afraid you may feel.
"When you wish upon a star, it makes no difference who you are. Any dream your heart desires will come to you."
Even as an adult I still look up to the sky and place all of my wishes on that one chance that it could happen to me. Self doubt still gets in the way, and I start to believe that dreams just don't come true for people like me. But I just remember that it should make no difference who I am, and that it's only my wish that does. Life may only seem to be the culprit holding us back from what, or where we want to be, but in actuality it is we that are the only thing preventing us from taking that first step forward.
Make no mistake that I am guilty of such things, but I try as I might to conquer my fears, and listen to my inner cricket. He offers words of wisdom and advice to heed that I have to believe in myself, be true to myself, and to dream big.