Life can take you anywhere, and it can take you on an amazing ride. Sometime though the ride is bumpy, hurtful, and downright mean. Even though you may feel that things are unfair, you have to stay positive, and believe in yourself, focusing on the good along the way.
I have struggled through the good, the bad, and the ugly of it all. When I go to sleep at night I toss and turn from the pain. But, even through my restless nights I wake up to remember all the positive things that are in my life. I have my health, my children are happy, and I'm getting closer to achieving my goals.
In less than a six month time period that I have been modeling, I have surprised myself, surpassing what I expected to happen. I have posed for a dozen photographers, modeled Harley Davidson apparel, won first place in a pinup contest, been in a B-movie horror flick, and modeled promotional merchandise from the movie, and I just made my fourteenth magazine publication. I have learned to choose which...
Fall has officially arrived. The air is getting cooler, and the leaves are changing from green to yellow, red, and brown. The days are growing shorter, and the nights are getting longer.
In my household fall break is upon us. The kids are enjoying being out of school, sleeping in late, and passing their time with video games, and retro Bugs Bunny cartoons. I really wish I could do all of those things. I'm still getting up early and trying to do all that I do.
I have been doing so much lately I've become behind in other things. I've slacked on my writing, and I'm wondering how I can make time for everything. I know I complain often about not having enough time in the day, and with good reason, because I don't have enough time. I need a clone. My life would be so much easier if there were two of me, ok, maybe three of me.
Balancing work, kids, writing, and modeling can be quite exhausting, but I make time for it all. I even make the time in the day for my minimum two mile walk eve...
Welcome back friends, and fans alike. I know I have been on a hiatus this past week, but even writers take vacations. I am well rested and ready to get back to work on all of my big dreams. So light the candles for a sweet sixteen celebration with me.
First I want to share with you the wonderful experience I had over the weekend; while I wait for the blood moon eclipse to commence. I may have ran up my credit card way too high for my little excursion, but like the commercial, the time I had was priceless. I met the most wonderful people, I made new friends, and I made sure I was going to keep in touch with them in the future. I learned to do new things like model clothing, and to lead with my right foot when making those perfect uniform turns. I also had the great honor of feeling what it was like to become a winner, not only just in place, or show, but to have true showmanship, and being there for others before worrying about myself. It was a great joy to have been a part of someth...
What is a number? How do we use them in our daily lives? I doubt we use algebra, or calculus to do simple things, but how do we use numbers in our daily lives?
The first numbers we see when we wake up is the digital time on our alarm clocks. Perhaps those early morning digits make give us a great start to our day, or cause us to panic and scramble out of the bed because we're running late. Those dreaded numbers signifying that our day has turned to chaos, and that sets an example of how the rest of our day will turn out.
The second numbers of the day may in fact be on our time card as we punch in at work. If we're on time we have no worries, but if we're late we see it when our paycheck comes at the end of the work week. Numbers then get subtracted, and we no longer have what we had anticipated on. No matter how hard we try we can't get our day to move any faster as we look again at the digits on a clock; waiting for when we can punch out for the work day and finally go home.
My how time does fly, it seems as though summer is nearly over and fall is creeping around the corner. I have been busy these past few weeks with trying to squeeze the last bit of sunny weather things in before I start preparing for cooler weather. I love the days of summer, but I anticipate with great happiness the coming of fall festivities.
After a lot of hard work and planning I am hoping to reach some of my goals before the end of the year. I'm heading in the right direction and am paving the road to success. Of course my writing is at an all time slow pace, and my modeling is going at a much faster pace, so between the two of them I'm trying to keep up. I need to get started again with working on my third book of my series, but time has not allowed for it. There is a lot more involved with doing photo shoots and submitting finished images to magazines than I had anticipated, but all of the hard work on that front has paid off. I've been published thus far in nine different pub...
Time, we have all of it, and yet not enough of it. They say time is of the essence, but we don't actually own time we're ruled by it. Our daily activities are run by a clock, we're in constant "go mode". But how can we change that?
I myself am in constant go mode, and like everyone else, I wish there were more time allotted in the day. I sometimes feel I need a clone, someone to do the work that needs to be done, which I don't feel like have time for. Or do I? I ask myself constantly. How can I create, or, for lack of a better word "budget" for time?
It's simple really, I either have to give up something that I want to do, or I create a timetable, and place everything I want to accomplish within its own timeframe. We all face this dilemma, we work, we have families, we have creative goals that we want to accomplish, or have hobbies that we enjoy doing. But how do we fit in that R&R at the end of the day? The real question is. What is it that we have to give up, or ignore, or stop d...
What are dreams made of? I ask myself this very question every day when I awaken. As I role out of my bed wiping the sleep from my eyes and stagger into the bathroom, I wonder if today will be the day. As I let the water spray down over my flesh, I imagine all of my worries and fears of failure wash down the drain. And tomorrow when I step into my shower, I will linger a little bit longer to wash away yet another passing day of pain and failure.
When I believe things are looking up and I'm on the right path to where I'm supposed to be, I stumble and fall. My knees are scraped and my ego is bruised, but I slowly come to my feet and wipe the blood away. Today was one of those days where no matter how much I tried, the blood won't come off and the pain still lingers.
If I had the chance for a do-over I would do it right now. I would erase all of my mistakes, and try again in order to put myself at best where I should be. My life is so chaotic and so challenging, it takes everything I...
Mother Nature is the divine force in which we live in harmony with. There are many species of creatures which inhabit this Earth and several of them are great teachers. We can learn many of life's lessons from them and listen to what they tell us.
The animal world is abundant, full of four legged furries, to two legged feathers, or a combination of no legs with scales and or legs with smooth yet rough skin. Then of course the vast collection of the insect world. Insects that range from the pretty fluttering kind, to the ones that work hard to repopulate our plant life, and the unfortunate creepy crawlers that haunt our worst nightmares, like the ones that bite and suck our blood, or that could kill us. Yes, they don't call it the wild kingdom for nothing, but we can still learn from every creature big, or small and even the ones we're afraid of.
Communication is the only thing besides some of our DNA makeup that really separates us from the animal world. We may not speak their lan...
When I'm feeling up, I feel very, very up, but when I'm feeling down, it's because somebody put me there. I try to be the best person I know how to be. But what does that entail anyway? I try to be honest, I try to be kind, even though I'm not a vegetarian, I still love animals, but I don't think that's the point.
The point of the matter is that no matter what your dreams are, you should always be supported by someone in your life. Whether they are family members, your best friend, or a significant other, those people you accept in your life should support you. If they don't, it's their loss not yours. It's better to be alone than feel alone.
I know my personal dreams and goals aren't for everyone. Perhaps someone, somewhere that's reading this right now at this moment in time, is possibly sharing in the same dream as I am. If not that's ok too. What I'm trying to say is that any one persons dreams may mean the world to them. I know mine means everything to me.
The sun has set on yet another day. A week has passed in the blink of an eye. Soon July will be over before we know it. Nothing has changed, but still I wait for something to happen.
Time itself has no boundaries. Anything can manifest out of control. We can count on the sun to come up every morning, set every evening, but we should never take it for granted.
Life as we know it, is written throughout the cosmos. Whether we choose to believe it or not, we are at the mercy of the universe. We think we own the world, yet, we are our own slaves.
Our destinies may not be completely intertwined with each other, but we are still linked as one species. Each and every one of us are here for the same purpose, to live, and to love. Some are more fortunate than others, and for rich, or for poor we still dream of the perfect love.
The stars in the sky are never alone. You can count them, gaze upon them, and for every one star there is a thousand more. I used to look up at them with amazeme...